not suitable for me?

sigh. hi.

I just came back from school, from exam, and the first thing I saw is that luhan is leaving exo.
All this stuff, just make me feel like flipping my life upside down and start over again.

Kpop used to be an escape for me from the reality world.
But seeing as kpop now become the things I want to escape from, I don't know my direction anymore.

I said to myself, "you only like 3 artist, exo, snsd, boa." to avoid myself getting hurt but now?
First it was kris's lawsuit, I was devastated to the very end. I cried for like 2 weeks.
I thought it'll be the last bitter things I will experience, but once again, luck proof me wrong.
Jessica decided to do her things and be a designer so I was like okay fine be happy.
"atleast 2014 is ending soon"

WELL APPARENTLY NOT SOON ENOUGH.
HERE I AM. BACK FROM THE FUCKING TIRED EXAM.
OPEN TWITTER. SAW LUHAN FILLING LAWSUIT. LAY WEIBO MESSAGE.
AND I WAS LIKE. FUCK. WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS?
WHO THE BLOODY FUCK DECIDED IT WOULD BE A GOOD IDEA TO PUT ALL THIS IN ONE YEAR.

AND OH YEAH IM MAD.
BUT IM MORE MAD TO MYSELF BECAUSE I DONT KNOW TO WHO AM I MAD TO
LUHAN? NO I SUPPORT HIM.
SM? NO FUCK NO BECAUSE THEY'RE DOING THEIR JOB.
EXO? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?

ALL I EVER ASK IS FOR EXO TO QUIETLY HAVE A HAPPY LIFE ON STAGE.
FOR THEM TO ALL BE TOGETHER.
BUT NO. IT'S NOT WE ARE ONE. IT'S WE ARE LEAVING ONE BY ONE.
I CAN'T EVEN SAY ANYTHING ANYMORE.
BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT MORE WILL HAPPEN.
FUCK MAN. SM DO YOUR JOB. EXO'S HEALTH PLEASE JUST FUCKING TAKE CARE.
TAO I LOVE YOU.
TIFFANY YOU'RE MY HOPE

BYE BYE FUCK THE WORLD.

More stuff about life.

So I have been going to the gym lately, trying to lose weight.
At first I was really awkward because I literally do not know how to use the machines. (LOL)
But asked for some help and tadah, now I'm kinda used to it. Kinda.
Anyway, there's no difference right now but I'm sure it'll take a long time so let be patience.

Okay.
So anyway life have been normal lately, a few drama once in a while but that's unavoidable so meh.
Lately I have been watching a lot of fashion show and youtube channel and I got really interested.
So I did my research and seeing that it's currently fall right now, I have been trying a lot of fall's fashion.
I have to admit that fall collection is my favorite out of the four, because it's mainly casual and comfortable yet not revealing like the summer's one.
Fall is also the time to wear beanies and if you don't know I ABSOLUTELY LOVE WEARING BEANIES.
I wear them all the time no matter if it's hot or cold. Hehe.

Lately I have been into platform shoes/boots because it's just so pretty in an elegant casual way. (do you get what I mean? LOL)
Instead of looking like a little girl, when I wore them I looked like some rich working woman. HAHAHAHAH.
Although I still kinda prefer comfortable converse and sneaker~

And I promised to update my blog often but I just doesn't get the chance!
I've visited a lot of place but the picture's quality is too bad for me to update about it.
I will try to update but noooo promise!

Anyway, it's going to be school holiday soon and I'm can't decided between "CAN'T WAIT" or "DON'T WANT!" :(
Because a lot of things happened this year, bad and good things, though mostly is good. <3
All I know is that SPM is sooner than I expected in early this year and I'm terrified......

That'll be all from me right now. Thanks to my 20 ants for reading and I hope you'll drop a comment!

See you in the next adventure.